Update on the Boys 

 So the blog has been “non-existently “ quiet for quite some time now. Let’s just say it’s been a year. 

Our two energetic boys are an unspeakable blessing. They are cuter than cute and the source of immense joy. But yeah, they’re toddler boys, less than ten months apart…So despite our best efforts to thrive we survived until summer.

Another reason the blog is silent is we’re realizing more and more how much we need to protect them from the complex details in their stories being shared out over the “interwebs.”

We are so blessed by friends and family who support and love us and want to keep everyone in the know, so they’re aware how best to support and pray for our family.

However, it’s proven increasingly difficult to not overshare or be repetitive and vague. Thus, the silence. Who knows how this outlet will evolve over time. But for the half dozen who actually follow and read our ramblings, updates will be rare and come in spurts. In the meantime know how much we love and adore our boys. How amazed we are at their resilience, growth, and love.

At this time we are elated to announce a mid-August adoption date for Little Z! We are also surprised at the speed of K Buddy’s case, as he already has a pre-termination hearing scheduled for mid-September! There’s a lot that needs to happen and can still happen. But we’re so amazed that the path looks clearer towards adoption for our tender-hearted joy, K Buddy.

In the meantime we covet your prayers for our boys and for us. It’s definitely been a trying year and season on multiple fronts and we’re so thankful to be keeping our heads afloat and experiencing new levels of God’s grace.

We would especially appreciate targeted prayer for:

• Self-Care for us Parentals

• Extra time in the day

• Sleep

• Typical toddler parent prayers

• Spiritual Wisdom and Patience

• Financial wisdom for adoptions, etc.

• Healing for our boys

• Balance with meetings, therapies, & appointments

• Grace for all who work with us and our boys  



We are unspeakably grateful that we never have to say goodbye. In a few weeks our Precious Little Z will officially be ours. The wait is over. He will have his forever family.

The journey was as advertised. While there are still fears of the future and a new journey ahead, the time of uncertainty will soon be over and permanency will begin.

Wow….Emotion after emotion! We have an adoption date for our precious Little Z. It’s been just over two years since God placed this jubilantly joyful, energetically ecstatic, snuggling sweetheart into our arms.

It started as an act of obedience to step out on to the waters of foster care, not knowing if we’d ever adopt. Not knowing if we’d get to keep him. A daily surrender to God’s plan for him and his biological family. Reminders of Abraham with Isaac, Hannah with Samuel, and friends with their foster children who returned home, enabled us to place his life and story into the Father’s hands. Yet after each ear to ear grin, tender snuggle, tickle chase, or “firsts” we fought that surrender, longing to keep him whatever the cost. But the words “All to Jesus I surrender. All to Him I freely give. I will ever love and trust Him. In His presence I will live.” won out, and we were graced with a deeper intimacy with Christ than we ever could have fathomed. Now we receive the gift of adoption. He will stay. How can it be? The world of foster care so rarely ends in adoption and there were so many heart-stopping, world crashing worries. Yet, we were given the gift of our son. Our son… A gift unearned and undeserved. Feels an awful lot like God’s grace. What a palpable visual and experience of the Father’s love and we will never take it for granted.

The emotions are many. Even in the midst of such ecstasy there is still grief. We rejoice, yet grieve for his biological family. This child means the world to us, yet they will never get to know this familial intimacy. We pray for them and the impact on his future. We pray for grace, transformation, and healing.

But today and the coming weeks we CELEBRATE! A new last name. A new birth certificate. An adoption.

“But these things I plan won’t happen right away. Slowly, steadily, surely, the time approaches when the vision will be fulfilled. If it seems slow, wait patiently, for it will surely take place. It will not be delayed.” Habakkuk 2:3





So many emotions… Roller coaster the past weeks, not to mention the 19 months our Little Guy has been in our family. But today we can happily share our Little Guy is legally free!!! Adoption in the near future!!!

We are overwhelmed and so blessed by this precious precious boy. We are jubilant knowing we won’t have to say goodbye and truly are “No Longer Slaves to Fear.

In the midst of the joy and elation we also recognize there is loss. We ask that all who offer up prayers of thanksgiving and praise also pray a blessing over his biological family. Prayer for them in their loss and that they can experience wholeness and freedom.

Words can’t begin to touch what God has shown us of His heart and love on this journey. There is so so so much indescribable joy out on the waters, in the depths of His grace and love.

It’s just too much. Overwhelmed doesn’t even come close. That we’d be given the gift of actually being his forever family is beyond comprehension and words. What a gift and blessing!

This has been quite the year with our Little Guy’s case, Little Miss M, and K Buddy. Hopefully we’ll have the time and energy to share more in the near future. However, today we rejoice in this incredible news and great gift. Thank you for all your love, support, and prayers. We pray that you too can fully experience the ridiculous depths of Christ’s love and blessings in your lives.

“But these things I plan won’t happen right away. Slowly, steadily, surely, the time approaches when the vision will be fulfilled. If it seems slow, wait patiently, for it will surely take place. It will not be delayed.” Habakkuk 2:3

“I will tell everyone about your righteousness. All day long I will proclaim your saving power, for I am overwhelmed by how much you have done for me. I will praise your mighty deeds, O Sovereign Lord. I will tell everyone that you alone are just and good.” Psalm 71:15-16

“Do not throw away this confident trust in the Lord, no matter what happens. Remember the great reward it brings you! Patient endurance is what you need now, so you will continue to do God’s will. Then you will receive all that he has promised.” Hebrews 10:35-36




Well, we’re still standing! Wow! Wow! Wow! On so many levels!

It’s been just about three weeks since K Buddy came to be a part of our family. While we’ve had quite the period of adjusting, we can happily say we see the light and have been blessed by the occasional calm sea.

There has been a tremendous improvement in behaviors and attaching for K Buddy, for Little Z, and us for that matter. It’s definitely been the real deal, but we’re so overjoyed that we’re finding our rhythm and all experiencing deeper levels of joy.

Again and again we’re reminded by those who have walked the road before us that this is a life long journey. Steps ahead, steps back. Seasons of ease and normalcy, and seasons that are just plain exhausting and less than awesome.

We constantly struggle to navigate the questions in house of if this is typical toddler/infant development or because of early childhood trauma/exposure. We struggle daily surrendering these kids’ futures to God’s hands as the case continually changes with new developments that stop our hearts. It is absolutely as Kelly Rosati says, “Full-time. Frontline. Forever.

While we’d love to say we can’t imagine another path… Lies. We have. However, we’re continually reminded that foster care, orphan care, and adoption is God’s heart. We’re reminded that when we rely solely on Christ, and don’t hold tight to the comfortable life we receive that indescribable blessing of God’s faithfulness, provision, and love. It reminds us of that unearned grace WE so desperately need. The fullness of God’s grace, love, joy, peace, is truly out there on the waters.

Just this week King 5 reported the desperate needs for more foster homes. We constantly hear it from our social workers and circles. It’s a growing crisis. What an amazing opportunity for the church to be the light in this darkness. We are so happy that the Spirit is stirring hearts and churches to defend the fatherless. Continue to pray for the children, the workers, the families, and those on the fence taking that step.

We know many are curious and would love to have the details and timeline on the boys. Unfortunately, we don’t even have that information and are always limited in what we can share. However, here’s a snapshot:

Little Z
• Visits with bio family have been discontinued for five months and might possibly resume shortly.
• He has a new social worker.
• There is a preliminary court date in December for termination of parental rights. (Still early stages, will take forever…)
• They’re still pursuing a potential relative placement out of state…

K Buddy
• He is now on his eighth social worker (in nine months).
• He has four visits a week that are challenging on multiple levels.
• He is continued to be monitored for medial and developmental challenges.
• The decision to make adoption a permanency plan option was not approved by the commissioner. (The process will continue…for a long time…)

This is the most we dare share online; however, we SO believe in the power of prayer and want you to be able to pray specifically.

We thank all of you for your prayers, support, love, and words of encouragement. Please remember we are not saints. We all have our arenas we are obedient to God’s call, our own moments of bravery that stem from our faith and desire to live the life of a Christ follower. These boys continue to remind us that the two of us are a broken mess, desperately in need of the Father’s love and grace.


Be joyful always. Pray without ceasing. Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18



Family of Four Once More

K Buddy is officially a part of our family as of today!

It’s such a different experience having gotten to know him these past weeks and now have him here.

So much to say… We’re continually amazed by the similarities to our Little Guy and what a great fit he’ll be in our family. He is unbelievably precious and we love him dearly.

We’re all adjusting…

Our Little Guy has his moments of jealousy… We’re learning how to navigate two boys in diapers, just ten months apart…K Buddy is definitely having a hard time as he had an amazing foster family who he was definitely attached to…

Please pray first and foremost for K Buddy with the unbelievable confusion. That he’d find peace with all the extra cards he’s been dealt and that we can protect, nurture, and comfort him. Pray for the coming days and weeks with attachment. We know it will be a lifetime journey with attachment, but especially desiring prayer for the present and near future.

We of course ask for prayer for our Little Guy on all the levels you’d expect.

Pray for K Buddy’s last foster family. What a gift and blessing they were to him! No words…Just amazing! Pray as they miss him terribly and that they’d be renewed to continue their amazing gift to continue to touch so many lives.

Pray for K Buddy’s family. There will continually be challenging dynamics. However, as we still pray for our Little Guy’s and Little Miss M’s family, we pray that K Buddy’s family would know completely that indescribable, life altering love of Christ.

Finally, pray for our wisdom, energy, grace, humility, and faith.

We continually are caught off guard and laugh at how God calls us deeper out upon the waters. That song, that is now so over played to the point it tempts one to go through the motions of singing on Sunday, still rings true. This is where our faith is without borders. Walking upon these waters has made our faith stronger than ever before. We’re given the greatest gift of seeing God come through in a myriad of inexplicable ways. God is GREAT!

We pray that you all know and love Christ deeper each day. There’s no greater reward or joy!!!

“You’re blessed when you stay on course, walking steadily on the road revealed by GOD. You’re blessed when you follow his directions, doing your best to find him. That’s right—you don’t go off on your own; you walk straight along the road he set. You, GOD, prescribed the right way to live; now you expect us to live it. Oh, that my steps might be steady, keeping to the course you set; Then I’d never have any regrets in comparing my life with your counsel. I thank you for speaking straight from your heart; I learn the pattern of your righteous ways. I’m going to do what you tell me to do; don’t ever walk off and leave me.” (Psalm‬ ‭119‬:‭1-8‬ MSG)



We hesitate to share a great deal of what this post contains. However, because of our passion for the ministry of foster care, our desire for authenticity and truth, we choose to share it. For those who have foster and adoptive friends and family, please choose your words carefully. Too often, we or friends have been recipients of extremely hurtful and ignorant comments. We know it’s awkward and many are at a loss with what to say. It’s ok to just give a hug and forego words. Foster care and adoption is messy, there’s no easy guidebook with what to say with the endless variables. If you choose to share with us or others on a similar path, please choose your words wisely and speak in love.

For a month we’ve thought about this post. What we’d say and how we’d say it. Each day a new variant arose as life did that funny thing of getting complicated…

Tomorrow would be six weeks Little Miss M lived with us as part of our family; however, that was not to be. Today we said goodbye.

One week after she came to live here we were updated that circumstances had changed and she would be returning home for reunification any day. We were told “It’s not a matter of weeks or months, but days.”

Yes, we knew she would be a short term placement, something we were always hesitant to do, but you of course don’t love on these kids like they’re here for a matter of days. You give them everything; your whole heart. It was a crazy first week and we were amazed at the progress and “glimpses.” However, we processed and came to terms with the news. We were excited for her as it truly was in her best interest to return home.

After that crazy leap of faith saying yes and life changing in a multitude of ways, we realized life would be returning to normal. We started envisioning a family of three and a simpler, more comfortable life. We would jump back in with another kid when summer came around.

But of course that wasn’t to be, as the very same day we were approached about another child. “Seriously God? I know we talked that big talk about not living the comfortable life, but we took the step of faith. We brought Little Miss M into our home. We extended your love, we grew, now it’s time to rest and let life settle down.”

As we heard more and more about this little boy, who would soon be turning one, our jaws dropped at the countless reasons why our home was the perfect fit. SO SO SO many similarities to our little guy with a couple cherries on top, pointing to why he’d be a good fit. But the timing? Not to mention two boys nearly ten months apart and some additional challenges of course.

For that week we were given the luxury not usually provided for with foster care…time to make a decision. He’d be moving in about a month, but they needed a commitment soon. We knew Little Miss M would be leaving shortly, and so could entertain this as we’d only have two kids in foster care. But it was still such a huge decision as it was much more likely a forever family commitment. That week listening to “Crazy Love” by Francis Chan, several new worship songs, and jarring devotionals from Sarah Young’s “Jesus Calling” we were compelled to walk deeper out upon the waters. We said yes to K Buddy. 

We’d still have about a month before he transitioned and we were told Little Miss M was literally going the next day. “Ok we’ll have time to recover.” A little of that recommended self-care was sounding good.

A week goes by and we’re still loving up Little Miss M and our Little Guy, of course with no updates and the same message of she’ll be returning any day. We have at this point already shared with all parties about our commitment to K Buddy and all are aware of the timeline, cases, and kids.

Another week… We’re told, “Ok, so–and-so is working with the family, they have dot-dot-dot in place, it’s really really happening.” Again we stress the need for confirmation as we’ve given the commitment to K Buddy, his current foster parents, and social workers. As much as our crazy, prone to radical, hearts say we could handle three foster kids, thankfully our semi-rational brains hold firm that we cannot provide the needed love and care for this particular group of three children. So the timeline again is confirmed by all of the day Little Miss M will for sure be returned by…

And here we are…

This week we were made aware that reunification was still very close; however, would not happen by the set date…So we reached out…to our pastors, foster mentors, family, friends. We prayed, we talked, we were silent, we prayed…

Knowing the ridiculous amount of variables in these three kids’ cases, the timelines and needs, along with what we and others believe we are capable of, we said goodbye to Little Miss M today. We loved her with all we had. We are confident that the past six weeks provided stability in the traumatic tumultuous time she found herself. She knows how much we love and always will love her. We’re still in contact with her family and are doing all we can to remain in contact with her new foster family. The unending blessings of clothes, supplies, and toys from our church family, friends, and family went with her. Whatever remains will be transported to her family when they are ready. She is so close to her much needed reunification with her family. We choose faith over worry as we surrender and trust.

So here we are with a very complex set of emotions as we grieve her leaving, yet prepare to welcome K Buddy to our home. Both our Little Guy and K Buddy have similar stories and what would seem trajectories. We have no assurances and there are constantly changes with the cases as the state’s goal remains reunification for all foster children. However, in our mostly un-biased opinion, both of these boys VERY much need forever families, and it would appear our homes will be that forever family.

As always, we are so limited in what we can share, and the blog will most likely be quiet for a while. For now we have a week to semi-recover and prepare our home for K Buddy.

In the meantime please pray!
• Pray for Little Miss M in her current placement
• Pray that reunification for Little Miss M and her family occurs soon
• Pray for our Little Guy as he has been doing amazing, but is clearly impacted
• Pray for us as we are emotionally and physically exhausted
• Pray for the preparation for K Buddy
• Pray for the transition of K Buddy from his current home to ours

Our motives now and forevermore remain to walk in obedience to Christ, surrendering our lives and plans, that God’s incomprehensible love might be experienced by all.

“Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.” Romans 12:2

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Letting Go

The blog has been quiet this past month. Little Miss M has been with us five weeks today. These truly have been deeper waters, filled with blessings and storms. As soon as life and thoughts allow we’ll update what we can.

For now, some words that resonate with our present circumstances:

First, a dear friend in the trenches shared a blessing given to Henri Nouwen:

“May all your expectations
be frustrated.
May all your plans be thwarted.
May all of your desires
be withered into nothingness,
that you may experience the powerlessness and
poverty of a child and sing and dance
in the love of God the Father,
the Son and the Spirit.”

Second, today the lyrics of this song captured so perfectly our current state of emotions:

My heart beats, standing on the edge
But my feet have finally left the ledge

Like an acrobat
There’s no turning back

I’m letting go
Of the life I planned for me
And my dreams
Losing control
Of my destiny
Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
So I’m letting go

This is a giant leap of faith
Trusting and trying to embrace

The fear of the unknown
Beyond my comfort zone

I’m letting go
Of the life I planned for me
And my dreams
Losing control
Of my destiny
Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
So I’m letting go

Giving in to your gravity
Knowing You are holding me
I’m not afraid

Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
Feels like I’m falling and this is the life for me

“I’m Letting Go” by Francesca Battistelli

Thank you for your continued prayer for these children and their future. Thank you for prayers of grace, endurance, and wisdom.

Through it all, it is well and God is good.